We slept. Let’s pause to rejoice that gloriousness. “It’s raining”, Owen said, after hearing the rain hit the awning. More rejoicing. What a grand way to start our day. There is so much complexity to that simple sentence. Tears are forming in my eyes and the smile spreading across my face as I think of it again. He woke up, heard the noise of the rain outside, and had a conversation with me. Thank you, God, thank you! The birds chirped with their rejoicing too. He was playing with his Santa rollercoaster and said, “penguins in the box come”. I asked him to repeat it. He went to the tv and pulled up a penguin rollercoaster video and said it again, “penguins in the box come”. I said, “do you want a penguin rollercoaster” and he said, “yes”. This felt like the moment when I’ve heard so many parents saying their child will ask for every toy at the store. Owen’s never done that before. He never grasped the concept. It felt magical. I pulled up a toy like it and asked him if this was what he wanted. He told me yes again. I showed him a couple of other rollercoasters with different animals and vehicles, “no”, he said, “penguins in the box come”. I told him I would order it and it would come in a box in a few days. He ran to an empty box I had put by the door to take outside for trash day. He opened it a couple of times. I told him it wasn’t here yet but it would be here soon. There is so much joy from being able to not only have a conversation with my sweet baby O but to understand and be able to get something that he wants. The connections he is making are incredible and my heart is thankful. He’s had two baths and my floor has been mopped three times in the span of an hour. I got the ham salad out of his toes and hair and ears and off the floor only for him to spill his milk all over the table and the Santa rollercoaster. The milk spill looked like it was trying to take Santa back to the North Pole. The last two days have been much calmer than any of the days in the past two weeks. I’m thankful he feels more at peace in his body and the words and connections are flowing. He said, “do you see the smile on my face I'm happy”. Me too, baby, I'm happy too. Life is not always easy to explain but the love sure is. Never give up. You can make tomorrow the day of your dreams. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.