Well, today was a good bad day or a bad good day. I’m really not sure which. There were some very big moments of tears, more for me than him, but there were some huge meltdowns for Owen. He doesn’t know how to process it all, who does. Every change is hard on him. Every day that the routine is not routine is hard on him. And every time I think I understand the rules I clearly don’t. I put paper over the door window for today hoping to keep him from seeing the light and the storm door if it got opened again. That caused as many problems as the door itself. I remind myself one day at a time. He didn’t like the paper on it because that’s not how it’s supposed to be. I need to paint the glass or put a film over it. Maybe that will get done tomorrow. We sang many songs and he was very sleepy so he sat a lot, which he never does. I got him to drink his tea tonight and miraculously the caffeine is still helping him sleep. Beyond thankful for that. He’s slept close to eight hours a night for several weeks now, he’s only had a few not so great nights. I’ll take it. In these days of stress I’m trying to be calm, but when he is spiraling it takes all my strength to not spiral as well. I’m thankful for the words he is learning and that his comprehension skills are increasing. And I pray every day to do my best for him and with him. Through the sleepiest parts of his day, he would come to get his “big hug” and he smiled ever so slightly, but that’s all I needed to keep pushing forward. Know that through the struggles the sun will shine again. Every day do something for you. It’s important. You are important. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.