Sometimes the river of tears fall and there isn’t a thing you can do about it. Owen screams a lot. Most of it is happy screams that are very loud, but there are the meltdown screams and the mad as a hornet screams. But any time I show emotions it upsets him. My heart aches for my little boy because I can see how hard this all has been on him. He has been requesting more turkey again, changing it up from his shrimp requests. He still loves his shrimp, but at every meal and snack he wants his turkey. The dude is growing again. Every noise is becoming amplified to him. He gets fixated on a noise and he won’t let go until he figures out where it’s coming from. And then when he figures out where it’s coming from he yells “turn it off” constantly. This is not something I can always do. There are noises that come from the world around us and he can’t handle them. I don’t know how to explain them all to him or make him understand. All I can do is tell him it’s going to be fine and that I love him. Today felt impossibly long. He slept great last night though. I’m hoping tonight goes as well, but the difference might be all in the tea he didn’t drink. Last night he drank it beautifully, tonight he wore it, spilling it, well rather spitting it all down the front of his shirt. I hope he drank enough to help him sleep through the night though. Pure exhaustion has won for me today. As he finally drifted off to sleep all I could do is pray for a better tomorrow. My heart is with all the other autism families and everyone else that might be struggling today. Remember you are not alone. Keep pushing forward. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.