Screams, I keep telling myself I’ll get used to them. I truly don’t know that it is possible but at this rate, I think I will have to get used to them before Owen stops doing them. I have to remind myself to stay focused and continue to work with him. I tell him that we need to work together and try to understand what he is screaming about. After going to bed so late last night I kept praying he would sleep really late. He slept all night but six came awfully early. I told him yesterday we were going to meet our friends at the park. He couldn’t wait to go. When we left our house I explained that he couldn’t scream at the lights and that mommy was driving and didn’t need help. I kept trying to distract him. He did pretty good on the way to the park and mostly mediocre on the way home. He wanted to scream, he let a few peeps out but thankfully he listened. It was hard though and it’s exhausting. He liked the park but he didn’t want to do anything besides swing and then run around. The park we went to though is great because it has a fence all the way around. We had our therapy this afternoon so I knew we would have to go back out. He knew we did too. He once again did fine on the way to our session but on the way home he did not like the fact that I didn’t drive by the windows. He screamed. I talked to him and he stopped screaming but then I turned and the screaming started again. For at least a mile before we got home I started talking to him about counting and breathing through these moments. I tried to focus his attention on this. It only kinda sorta not really went over with him and the screams were still there but at least he didn’t make himself sick. I kept telling myself that we have to build the strategy and that it isn’t going to be overnight. I reminded myself that I had to breathe through this as much as Owen does and that we would get through it. I need to work on his cocoon that I’ve made for him with the window shades and fabric and try to block the view a little better. Not that it truly matters since he can tell where he is going strictly by the motions alone. Once we got home he was calm, asking for bed early, and interacting with me effortlessly. His vocabulary has greatly increased and I’m excited about his progress. He sang to me in multiple languages, asking Siri how to say certain phrases in Russian. Right before bath time, he was listening to the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse in some other language and I asked him what they were saying. He explained to me it was about a hippo and Mickey’s gloves. My amazing little dude is growing and thriving and the screaming will pass one day exactly as it started. Never give up on the hope for tomorrow. Find your strength and inspiration and know that you can make a difference in our world. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.