I am dreaming of sleep I think. It seems like sleep is hard to come by right now. Owen is perched on the chair, eating veggie straws, and watching a video. He holds his hand in front of his face, moving up and down by the screen. He’s always been fascinated by the shadows and watches how the light falls onto objects. He stims as he gets excited watching the shadows. His hands go out from his body in different directions, almost like he is punching the sky. He makes an EEEEE sound as he continues. He has done these steps since he was little. I didn’t understand why he did it at first but as time has gone on I realize it helps him regulate and process what’s going on in his body. It’s calming to him. There were other types of actions that he did when he was younger that I was concerned with, like banging his head. He stopped doing that thankfully. It was so scary for me. I truly didn’t understand why he would do it and how to help him through it. I still don’t always understand his need to do certain actions but I let him know that I’m here for him. I feel sometimes like I’m playing that game where you name that tune in one note or less. Only it’s a combination of words and tunes for us. Owen will mumble or hum several words together and expect me to be able to find them on his tablet. And now that he is speaking numerous languages this has gotten even harder for me. He wants me to find a video or a song that could be in countless languages or sung by any combination of people, cartoons, or even animals. His video history doesn’t always help because he will remember a fact or tune for years and years and then want to look at it again. I ask him to repeat himself but this is a hard process for him that he is only starting to understand. Today he wanted me to find a song by humming the first few words and then he squished together “doda”. I do not know how I figured it out but the screaming that had filled the air stopped. It was an English song but he then responded to me in French. I’m constantly amazed at how many words and phrases he is saying in so many languages. I’m thankful for his progress and here’s to watching my sweet baby O soar. Be bold, be beautiful, be you. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.