Have you ever gotten something off a refrigerator shelf only to have it fall to your feet with all its contents? I stood back and laughed, telling 2020 to move on with its bad self. Luckily the jar I had taken off the shelf was the only glass item. The day was a spiraling mess, one thing after another after another, and then some more. My internet finally started working a couple of hours shy of almost a full day. I fixed Owen's dinner. I had been stress-snacking all day so I wasn’t very hungry. I put apple slices and caramel sauce to dip them in on the table. I went to the refrigerator to get a drink and I hear Owen starting to squeal. It was escalating fast. If I don’t catch a meltdown by this point I know that it will be really hard to stop it. Before I could even walk back to me he was in front of me holding the bowl of apple slices. “Throw it in de trash”, he said. He went on, “apples”, he squealed. So, okay, when did apples become a meltdown food I’m not sure. He almost made it to the trash but I saved them. I had not seen this reaction to apples. Bananas yes, apples no. I sat down with the bowl and explained mommy didn’t ask him to eat them that I wanted to eat them. This still did not sit well for him. I picked one up to show him. He started gagging. At this point, I knew I needed to put them up. There used to be many foods that would make him gag even if it wasn’t in the same room as him but I’ve worked with him to desensitize him from smells and textures. We still have a ways to go but one step at a time. Last week when I had an apple with caramel he took a bite of it and didn’t like it so somewhere along the lines, he decided he didn’t like them or he became sensitive enough to them that now they make him gag. I walked into the other room to get something and when I turned around Owen was squatting on the table finishing his dinner. My heart dropped. It’s a drop leaf table and here he was on it. All I could do was pray he didn’t fall until I could get him off. We sat in our chairs to let him finish his dinner and I drank my tea. It’s truly a journey like no other. I’m thankful every day for Owen’s smile and his growth. Be motivated by the promise of tomorrow. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.