When I picked up Owen, I asked him about his day. I have been doing this for as long as I can remember. I ask him questions, filling in the answers, or at least making suggestions of what the answers could be. What did you have for lunch, did you work on your numbers, did you sing any new songs, did you meet any new friends, did you have fun after school, and the list goes on, answering each one as I say them. My heart wants to beat out of my chest with the emotions this causes me. But I do it anyways. I want him to understand conversations, I want him to know I’m listening, and I know the day will come when he answers, with his own answers. I try not to let the sadness swirl inside my soul. This is my baby. His new favorite song is The Bear Necessities. He will sing it, but sometimes he wants me to sing it. He’ll start with one note, sometimes he’ll say “oh”, waiting for me to finish the words. The line he wants to sing is exactly the line I need to hear; “the bear necessities the simple bear necessities forget about your worries and your strife”. Some days I feel like I need a rod in my back to keep me standing tall, and walking forward; like a wilting flower that need support through the elements of weather. I have to remind myself that Owen’s happy, learning, and growing. I tell myself to be kind to my soul, and I wonder if we set ourselves up for failures when we don’t encourage ourselves to see the complexity of life, and know that it’s going to be okay. I tell myself to breathe, look at where we stand today, and to know there are great things to come. Live, love, and smile. Know that through the rain there will be sunshine that comes. Make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.