The words are flowing, but the raw sentences do not always twist and turn to explain what Owen means. He stood in our front window. Halfway on the ledge and halfway on the couch banging on the window. I was begging him to get down and he was begging for people to leave. “Tell then bye bye”, he said repeatedly, with a squeal in his voice. I could see no one around. He went on, “see the puppy”. There was also no dogs near our house. The view from our window has become a new source of anxiety for him. I’m not sure which people and which dogs he refers to since we have encountered so many over the years near our house. He gets upset when people park near our house and don’t leave when he thinks they should. And if people come to our house this can also upset him for days. Sometimes it’s fine, it depends on the person, or how he is handling things for the day, but other times he sits at the window trying to explain his emotions. My heart explodes with my own emotions. How do you explain that life is happening right outside our window and there is nothing we can do to change it. One day at a time. I pray, I rejoice the victories, and I try to remind us both of the patience we need through life. His progress is amazing to watch as he figures out how to express himself and to get what he wants. Even through those moments of struggle I focus on the progress, I have to. This morning he got to see his beloved moon on our walk to his bus stop. He was excited to see the bus come around the corner and off he went to school. On the walk back to our house I got a pebble in my shoe. It makes me think about walking a mile in Owen’s shoes. I always wonder if he understands how to tell me if his shoe is bothering him. But his words give me hope and I can see how he is learning to express himself. We learn, we grow, and together we are a team. Know that today is one moment in time. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.