Today felt like a victory in so many ways. I can say the struggle train is far from over, but we succeeded in having a good day with only a few really emotional moments. Oh, and there’s the fact that he ignores me a lot when I’m giving him directions so they don’t count, but wants instant answers when he yells at me. He doesn’t understand that I do not have all the answers or know the clips he is watching on YouTube. He shows me his tablet and says “that’s a” and then wants me to answer. He will have it paused on a screen, but generally, his hand is covering most of the character or he’s holding it where I can’t see the screen at all. I ask him to show it to me or push play so I can see more of it, but that’s a hard concept for him to grasp. He asks me repeatedly all day to find the videos he’s already watching. He loves the voice-activated command. But he doesn’t understand when I say, “it’s a plane” on the screen and I say, “it’s a plane” that it won’t know to open a Mickey Mouse Clubhouse video about the plane they are in. This had him screaming numerous times when jets would be on the screen instead of Mickey’s plane. We got more sleep last. I realized my dehumidifier was probably part of the cause. He doesn’t like any noises coming from the basement. So last night it was off and he slept until four. He was up running around and I kept asking, really begging him to go back to sleep. He finally asked to go back to “mommy’s bed“ around five. We were in his bed a couple more hours, but he did check to make sure my eyes were not closed numerous times. As long as we still call it “mommy’s bed” he’s extremely happy. Through tired eyes, I saw more of a sparkle in Owen today. The days and weeks have been hard on him. I’m proud of my sweet baby O. Find what brings a sparkle to your eye and a gleam in your heart. Make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.