Sometimes the loneliness feels overwhelming. Then I hear, “thank you mommy” and my heart flutters. Owen had asked me for milk and when I was finished he told me thank you. I tell him that we have to show our respect to people and always use our manners so this thank you is years in the making. Concepts, emotions, actions, and reactions don’t all come easy for him. We have to go through the steps numerous times before he performs the steps. We’ve been working on directions. I’m also trying to get him to understand his left side and right side. Numerous times today we play games trying to get him to hold his left hand or right hand up. I watched him struggle through all the steps and I have to push through my own emotions. When I asked him to hold his right hand up he would clap his hands together and start singing “if you happy and you know clap your hand” spinning around with delight. He always uses both hands to do all his activities so I am not even sure if he is left-handed or right. He treats them equally. His screams echo through my mind. The noise can be deafening. He yells when he is happy, mad, sad, glad, and every other emotion I can think of. Learning words is helping him but he still screams through these emotions. And generally, when he is screaming he is jumping. I have to concentrate on the smiles he gave me, the hugs he requested, and the kisses he loved when I made a big smush sound on the top of his forehead. Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.