Once upon a time, there was a lot of time. My mom has always said this to me. Right now it feels like it’s hurry up and wait for everything. I fell asleep with Owen last night. I woke up several times with a foot near my head or his hand across my face but I was too exhausted to get out of his bed, the bed he still calls “mommy’s bed”. For a while, he slept better in my old bedroom so I changed my house around and gave him my room. It was darker than his room and sleeping in mommy’s bed was the answer, until it wasn’t. Now it’s back to every night is up in the air. But the sleep I did get last night was needed. Some days my emotions get the best of me. I have been working on what time means with Owen, hoping that it will help with his anxiety about when he is supposed to do something. I tried to explain the digital clock to him this morning. I’ve gone over it before with the same results. He isn’t quite there yet. He sees numbers as a math problem and not as time. He wanted to add the numbers and not read them for me. All it was doing was upsetting him so I moved forward. His words are becoming more fluid and also he is truly interchanging English with all the languages. He asked Siri for “hickory dickory donkey in Portuguese”, quickly following it up with “dashing through the snow in French”. The phrases kept flowing and the requests came in every language she translates into. He moved on to watching shows on the television so that he could hear more languages. He listens in one language and then he has the captions in another. He moves through all the languages as well. As we were eating lunch he said, “I am happy today happy for grapes”. He keeps me guessing. He was full of emotions, wanting school and the request to me for “I’ll get you some more church”. Yes, my sweet baby O I’ll get you some more school and church. I’m thankful he loves to go to both. The week ahead seems like the weather should be better and hopefully, he’ll get to go to school every day. He also has therapy appointments so it will be a busy week. He felt connected today and his smile was bright. I’m thankful for the journey ahead. Be bold, be beautiful, be you. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.