Today is one of those days that needed to be done, got accomplished, and totally and completely exhausted me. And then Owen screamed. We had an appointment today that was long overdue. It was pretty much five years in the making and we are still not to the goal line yet. I can’t even wrap my brain around it all and I think I’ll put it on a shelf for a rainy day. One thing I do know is there is not enough help out there for special needs families. Owen brought his tablet to me, stuck it an inch from my nose, and started saying words that I couldn’t completely understand. He wanted me to use the voice-activated option to help him find something, but his words could not describe exactly what he wanted. He knows what he wants, but we can’t always find it. And sometimes he will be watching the video he wants to see, then brings me his tablet, and asks for the same video he is currently watching. I try to listen to the words he uses and the videos he is watching so I can help him find them without a meltdown or screaming. It becomes overwhelming for both of us. And then I say, “mommy needs a hug” and he comes running. He jumped in my arms and gave me a big hug. He used to think hugs were kisses on his forehead and when I would ask for a hug he would come running, putting his forehead to my lips, and run away again. I would always give him kisses on his forehead and then a big hug, so he didn’t understand the difference. The hug was exactly what this momma needed and he stayed in my arms for several minutes after that. His smile, laughter, and mischievous little grin with the sparkle in his eyes are exactly what get me through our days. I tell him all the time he has to give mommy patience and I remind myself of it as well. Flying chicken went sailing across the room right in front of my face. The laughter ￼erupted from my sweet baby O. Some days the chicken hits the fan, other days it’s in my hair. Today I’ve worn every emotion on my sleeve, but I’m thankful for Owen’s growth and the part of our story that’s yet to be written. The journey through life is not always a straight path, but the winding road gets you there as well. Learn from yesterday and grow into tomorrow. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.