The day felt lazy to me. Owen was watching his tablet on the tv. Technology always amazes me and what’s even more amazing is how he can figure it all out. And seemingly quicker than me. He, however, doesn’t understand that I also have a remote control to the tv on my phone. When he turns it too loud I turn it down now. But what I seem to not get is that just frustrates him and he turns it up louder. The give and take of it all. He listened pretty well today, for the most part at least, but he still wants me to follow all his rules and not follow all of mine. Sitting at the kitchen table is not something he wants to do or can process to do. He sits for a few moments and then he jumps up and wants to run. As it is food still gets flung everywhere, but when he eats and runs it’s hopeless. I just breathe. He is getting more and more agitated about my phone. He doesn’t want me to make any calls, watch any videos, or look at something if he is near me. This seems to be something that has increasingly gotten worse in the last week so I don’t know what is causing the extra anxiety over it. I’m trying a new sleeping supplement with Owen. So far there was no change. Extra yawns started off the night, but yawns quickly turned into hysterically laughing, and two hours later he finally fell asleep. My heart aches in these moments. He was all over the bed, throwing himself around like a rag doll, pushing his whole body into his pillow, screaming as the night went on. He’s getting stronger all the time. I pray for calm for my sweet baby O. I pray that he will find peace through the night. And I pray for his communication skills to keep growing so he can help me understand. This momma is tired tonight, not feeling my best from my own things, and wanting, hoping, dreaming of a great tomorrow. I remind myself of where we’ve come from and I see progress even through tired eyes. He played his guitar, keyboard, and harmonica without me promoting him at all today. There is great joy in my heart knowing how much he loves music. Never give up. The rain may pass through our days, but the sun will shine again. Rejoice in your victories no matter how big or small. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.