What’s old is new again. Rinse repeat seems to be what we do. Owen goes for days telling me he needs to potty and then the potty train is derailed. Luckily, we aren’t back to the fecal smearing, but here we are off the train once again. Last night, right before his bath, I asked him to get ready for his bath. He came up to me saying, “big hug”. This meant something was up. Whenever he wants a big hug I know he is trying to get away with something or he knows that he has does something he isn’t supposed to do. I try to explain to him about right and wrong and consequences from those moments. I always tell him I love him and that he is learning, but he needs to help mommy and follow instructions. I’m the self-proclaimed queen of over-explaining, so I often wonder how much he understands. But I want him to connect the dots and I always want him to understand even when I use the stern voice that I love him. I think he gets the big picture because now he is coming for the hugs. My sweet baby O has grown so much. His words and actions tell me he is putting more of the connections together. Every day I’m thankful for the connections because it helps him understand our everyday life. When things are not routine it is very hard for him to understand. The words are helping him through those moments. I reference the days of the week and show him a calendar, explaining what is happening each day. Last night he talked about Saturday and he said, “Saturday after bowling I go to grandma”. My baby gets it. The routine, the moments, the words, the connections, they are all working together to help my baby grow. The doctors told me Owen might not talk. I couldn’t hold that in my heart. I believed in Owen. I believed that he could talk. And I told him all the time that he could. I asked him to prove it to me, to search in his brain to find another way to tell me his words. I have to say I almost begged him to talk to me. A tear escaped. Believe in miracles. Believe in yourself. And believe in others when they may not even understand how to believe in themselves. Make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.