Three in the morning is the new time for us. Owen woke, came to my bed, and immediately wanted his tablet. Umm, no. Since then it has been a scream and meltdown fest. Any type of correction to Owen warrants more of the reverse type behaviors. And the more I seek calm the wilder he becomes. I took his tablet away from him all morning. Truly the only one this is harder on is me. He screams, he throws things, and he will get in my face repeating his words. We read, played with toys, and painted, but mostly he screamed or asked for his tablet every two seconds. It was clearly time to get our day started but I was dragging and wanted to sit. Staying ahead of my emotions gets harder and harder to do. Every time I breathe heavy it sets a chain of emotions off with Owen and this has also been happening more frequently. We set off for our day, stopping for coffee first. As soon as we stepped foot into the coffee shop Owen immediately walked over to a guy that was sitting in a chair that he likes to sit in. He crawled right up in his lap and instantly they were friends. I apologized, trying to get Owen out of his lap, but instead, he stayed there and the guy gave Owen his phone to play with, helping him get to YouTube and searching for videos for him. I stood there talking to him and his wife for close to thirty minutes it seemed. The stress of my morning washed away as I continued to talk to two very kind and compassionate people that gave both Owen and me a sense of comfort. I’m thankful for the experience and what it did for my mood. We continued our day with bowling, lunch, and a visit for him with his grandparents. I’m plain worn out. He did great when we were out, only having a few moments here and there, but our nights are catching up to me. Even when I feel like I’m breaking in a million pieces I look at his smile and hear his words “I wuv ewe” and I know it’s going to be okay. Through life’s challenges know that you are not alone, even when it feels overwhelming. Keep pushing forward. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.