Today feels like it was a very Monday Monday. Some days feel so lonely. I try to get Owen to interact with me and he ignores me. That’s how it feels, but in my heart, I understand there’s more to it than that. It still feels lonely though. He screamed a lot today. Happy screams, but they still rock my boat. And then when I want the sadness to wash away, but think it’s here to stay the incredible always happens. He started talking to me. It was in song form, but I’ll take it. He was an inch from my nose, singing Old MacDonald and adding all the vegetables and fruits he could think of. He was supposed to be sitting to eat, but hey he was talking to me, while he dragged his hands through my hair full of veggie straws. Never a dull moment. After that, I started singing the scales with him and I said, “you can hold a tone”. He thought I said tongue so then he started holding his tongue while trying to sing. He takes everything very literally. When I tell him to “close his eyes” he will take his hands and try to find a way to pull his eyelids down. I have to watch my words with him. I forget sometimes that he tries to do exactly what I tell him to do. He was happy all day, if not even a little mischievous. I was cranky most of the day. But his smile, bright eyes, and songs in his heart helped me get through my day. Find your smile even when it always feels like it is raining. Know that tomorrow is a brand new day. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.