How do you explain the unexplainable. I can’t even explain this to myself and here we are. And it’s thinking about snowing. Only a little bit. Maybe more like slush, but hey let’s add it into the mix of everything else that’s going on. I was calm most of the day. Owen was calm most of the day as well. Until Christopher Robin did not show up where he thought he would and then I had to spend an hour trying to “crack an egg” with him on one of his apps that for some reason we can never crack the last egg and it upsets him greatly. I’ve deleted the app multiple times and hidden it only for him to find it again. He was able to find Facebook and added it to his tablet because he wanted to “watch de movie” which is a musician playing a drum. He can watch him on YouTube, but he likes a certain video that is only on Facebook. He tried to log into the Facebook app in every language available. And I kept deleting it as well. Once upon a time, I knew technology, but I can’t seem to even lock the volume control on his tablet no matter how many times I go through the steps. By the time I’ve figured or not figured out how to do something, he has moved on to the next moment in time. As the night wore on the night wore on me. I was so excited earlier because I didn’t have to go to the bathroom with Owen. I didn’t even have to ask him. He ran past me, went, washed his hands, even dried his hands mostly. I only needed to help him with his underwear and bravo he did his own bathroom break. But then tonight he walks into the bathroom to get ready for his bath and pees on the floor right in front of me. Next up bedtime, where he proceeds to scream in my face “watch de movie” which was already on for him, wanted me to pull out his loose tooth, and gagging himself so he could yell “don’t make yourself sick”, all while jumping on the bed because “you don’t wanna break the bed”. So he’s asleep and I pray for a better day for him. The routine I have created for us gets thrown out the window about ten minutes after we start it. And my tears echo the emotions I know he must be having, but can’t even begin to explain them. One breath at a time we will make it through our days. Never give up. Find joy throughout your day and know that on this journey you are not alone. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.