And so he read and read and read. The river trend continued today. Owen still wanted that same video. But I think he wanted to read with me more. He ate a ton of food throughout the day. We started with biscuits and gravy. I always try to decide if he is left-handed or right-handed. He picked up the fork and ate it using his right hand and just as quickly as that bite was in his mouth he picked up a piece with his left hand and put it in his mouth. I really want him to use the fork but I figure if he gets more in him than on him it's worth it. With biscuits and gravy, it's about equal. He was watching a video and singing with it. He paused it and then started singing his scales, all on his own, sitting at the table, in between bites of veggie straws. Today felt like lots of small victories but truly huge emotional moments as well. He wanted to push my buttons but he also had those moments where he couldn’t seem to complete the cycle so he could move on. He got fixated on another video but he couldn’t find the one he wanted so for over two hours he asked me to find the exact same thing. He would then screech at the top of his lungs with his toes slamming the floor. My nerves were shot. The screaming takes a grinding toll on you after a while. So I suggested we read more books. At one point he realized he immediately needed his scooter and he ran to his room to get it. He pushed himself backwards on it for over an hour. I made hot dogs for dinner. He took one bite and ran from it. I knew he liked hot dogs but I didn’t push it. He asked for shrimp so I started cooking them. By the time I put the shrimp down for him he had already devoured his hot dog, started on one of mine, and then ate all the shrimp. We finished out our emotional day with him screaming and spitting at me in bed. He asked me, “you happy today” and started crying. My heart rejoices his victories and cries when he cries. All I can do is hold him and pray for a better day. Find your strength, move forward, and know that tomorrow is a brand new day. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.