I’m stressed with a side of tired. Or maybe it’s the other way around. Any noise is a noise for Owen. And all noises wake him. He woke last night, got into bed with me, and from there we both struggled for sleep. He doesn’t understand personal space at all. Owen wanted to put his head on my head. He finds peace there, but for me, it hurts. Even in his sleep, he will squish his head against mine. I built him a little fortress in my bed with a huge U-shaped body pillow and several blankets, but he still finds a way to maneuver up to my head. I want to scream, cry, and find a way to get him back to his bed. But instead, I have to remain as calm as possible hoping to keep him asleep. That doesn’t always work. Last night was one of those nights. He laughed through most of the night. I could tell he was exhausted, I know I am, but he couldn’t find the comfort he sought and I couldn’t let him lay on my head. Sometimes I tell myself if I can handle it for a minute he’ll be asleep and I can move him, but moving him wakes him up so I have to get him off my head before he falls asleep. We finally fell asleep within an hour of the time we needed to get him ready for school. He wanted to play instead of getting dressed, but he handled it all well until we went outside. He wanted to get in the car to drive to the bus stop, but I told him we would walk. He started screaming every so slightly and I started distracting him. That’s no easy task when he has a plan of action. We got to the bus stop and he was all giggles and smiles. The joy he has from learning and going to school makes my heart sing. During the wee hours of the night, he was reciting lessons he learned from his school apps. The moments of exhaustion get pushed away by the joy he gives me, as I sit here and yawn as I type. As the bus turned the corner he started singing away and I knew that everything would be fine. Through his eyes, I see the world in a whole new light. Push through the moments that rock your world, seek joy in the task at hand, and smile for the world to see. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.