Middle of the road is how I will describe today. Owen’s emotions have been all over the map and mine have been right there with him. He woke sometime in the middle of the night and got into bed with me. At that point, one of us slept and one of us didn’t sleep. He woke again a little after six ready for the day. I was already awake but I sure don’t think I was ready for our day. I wanted to go walk with Owen at this farmer’s market, he did not. I wanted to take him to ride elevators, he did not. I wanted to take him to look at horses, he did not. I asked him if he wanted to go bowling or to the coffee shop or even to watch the planes and he continued to tell me no. He didn’t want to go anywhere and when I said we were going he got really upset. There was no place we really had to go so we stayed home. I think he was afraid I was going to take him back to the petting zoo. He has therapy tomorrow and he has told me several times “therapy tomorrow tomorrow I go to therapy”. It’s routine, it’s his comfort, and I get that. I was listening to him ramble off French like he has been doing it all his life and it was beyond fast, and then right in the middle of his well rehearsed words, he is stopping to spell “h o r s e” in English. He ran to me, got an inch from my nose, and started spelling horse. For the rollercoaster ride of yesterday, he has been pretty calm today. We are trying a new strategy for his emotions and hopefully, the app we got will help him to learn to breathe. I’m trying to teach him that we can learn to control our emotions through breathing and relaxing. One day at a time. Each day we grow and learn. I held Owen as he fell asleep. He said, “I love you” and that’s what matters. Find your strength and keep pushing forward. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.