Oh, the difference a day makes. Yesterday Owen was so upset and emotional in the morning. This morning Owen was so upset and emotional but as soon as he turned the lights on and off at least twenty-five times in the kitchen he was ready to go to school. I have to remind myself to be patient. We can’t all be morning people. It takes Owen awhile to process changes, even changes he wants. And it takes me a while to figure out if I go with the flow or I try to correct a behavior. He thrives on my reactions so it’s hard to decide how to handle something. He gets emotional with my reactions, as well. I’m constantly having to decide what’s autism, age-appropriate behavior, or Owen. And in a moment of our emotions running altogether, Owen comes up to me with his hands stretched out. I braced for impact, thinking he was going to hit me, instead, he said, “wanna hug” and wanted me to bend down. He hugged me around the neck and said, “I wuv ewe”. These are the moments I know everything is going to be alright. He is making connections and as hard as the emotions are for both of us I know that he is learning by all of the steps we go through. I’m thankful for his smile that gets me through so many of our days. My emotions run deep and lately it’s even harder to express them in front of Owen. He has always felt my emotions but now they flow through him even stronger. He’s singing to me tonight, a song he learned at church. There’s a joy that shines through Owen and it lights up my world. Shine your light, be inspired, and know that you can make a difference. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.