We are back to the no sleep world. Well, Owen sleeps, wakes up, gets into bed with me, and goes back to sleep. Me, I stay up, go to bed, fall asleep, wake up, fall asleep, wake up, fall asleep, Owen gets into bed with me, and I’m awake. He is all over the bed, like an octopus holding onto a freight train, carrying an elephant, that’s looking for its teddy bear. He makes soft sleeping noises, and then he’ll yell out a word, or phrase that has occupied his mind for days. And then there are days, and weeks he will sleep all night, not one peep. Oh, to be back on that glorious sleep cycle. When he woke, he asked me, “are you cranky”, followed quickly by “babyredbur”, running all his words together. The last few days, he runs up to me trying to say “baby red bird” from the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse; so immediately when he woke he started talking about it again. He’s in a great mood this morning, ready to go bowling, and the coffee shop. He was right though, I might be a little cranky; I’m sure more coffee will cure some of it. This has been a very emotional week. I have to juggle a thousand things when I can’t even walk into the other room without Owen getting upset some days; following me, screaming, turning out the light that I need on, or moving back any of the things I moved. Even in chaos he has an order. I keep telling myself to look at how far we’ve come; both of us. I have to focus on the fact that Owen is my gift, and I’m thankful for all he has given me. There’s a sparkle in his eyes, and a determination to thrive. He sat on my lap, naming animals, so I would make the sounds, tickling him through the moments. His laughter cures my heart, that sometimes feels like it is in a million pieces. He’s ready to go bowling, I’m ready, too. I wish everyone could experience pure joy like he has when he walks into the bowling alley. Sometimes life doesn’t go according to plan, but sometimes the new plan is exactly what you need. Find your joy, and watch how the world opens up around you. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.