“Go put the milk up”, I said to Owen. He took it from me and off he went. He had gotten it out of the refrigerator so I could give him more. These steps are all so amazing and awesome to me. I’m trying to focus on the positives and the possibilities today and not the fact that my exhaustion is exhausted. He woke last night around two. He screamed and screamed and screamed some more. He was mad because he wasn’t going to see his teacher today. It was a vacation day for him and I tried to prepare him for it by telling him last night. I had a feeling this was a mistake but I’m trying to find ways to help him understand schedule changes. It did not go over well and at two in the morning he was expressing the way he could. He started screaming for his teacher and he didn’t want to go back to bed. When the screaming starts all I can think about is getting him calm. His screams rock me to my core and in the still of the night, I can only imagine how far they travel. I get to the point I beg him to stop. I explain to him that we are a team. We have to work together and screaming is not an option. When he was younger he screamed in the middle of the night more than he does now. My neighbors in the house next door would tell me they were sorry we had such a rough night. And I was thankful they understood and have always been very supportive of us. It still brings tears to my eyes thinking of all the struggles my sweet baby O has gone through. His connections to words and their meaning bring us one step closer to life skills that will help him through moments like these. All I can do is pray for those connections and words. The most exciting part of my day was hearing him answer math questions as I had him adding numbers to one. “One plus free ecos four”, he said and that equals my day made. Celebrate our victories and celebrate yours, no matter how big or small. Make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.