I heard the rain. I didn’t know the storm was coming. I immediately went into panic mode. Please, please dear God, do not let my power go out is all I kept praying. Owen didn’t really pay attention to the rain until it got really heavy and then he went to the window. Our electric had been out for most of the day, over a month ago. Someone had hit a pole near us, causing the power to be out, and causing Owen to go into overdrive. Owen struggled with not being able to turn the lights on. We stayed away from the house for most of the day, returning a couple of times to get a few things. It was hard for Owen to be out all day and it would have been hard for him to be home. Weeks have passed and he still talks about the lights being off. Luckily, our power stayed on, but my heart still raced. Autism is as much about how I handle it as it is about Owen having it. In these moments I have to stay calm, cool, and collected when I want to scream, twist, and shout every one of my emotions. I want to have a bubble around us at all times, so the world doesn’t cause my baby to have a meltdown. The calmer he is, the calmer I am, the better our day goes. And then sometimes ya just gotta breathe. Owen woke this morning asking for his teacher. I told him today was a holiday that he wasn’t going to school. He had slept all night in his bed, even got in bed with me for a few minutes, laying there quietly; that never happens. After a few minutes, he got up, saying, “I want mulk pwease” and away he ran. I heard the refrigerator open and I knew our day began. These moments and days are filled with emotions. Some I breathe through, other times I cry, and then I hold my baby tight. Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Live, love, learn, and grow. Make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.