You truly never know the moment your life will change forever. And I think our story gets written anew every day if we so choose and depending on what curveball you are thrown. Today was the true meaning of keep pushing forward and my baby standing on a balance beam. If that doesn’t make sense that pretty much sums up my life. With every curveball that was thrown at Owen today he melted-down and then he overcame the moment for an incredible victory. Me, I’m still over here in the corner shaking. I’ve told Owen for days that we were going to a birthday party. He went through his Saturday scenario, “coffee shop den bowling grandma”. I said, yes, but then we are going to a birthday party. He said, “happy birthday wanna slide”. The last time we went to a birthday party it was at a different place that he absolutely loved. They have huge slides and a maze of climbing activities that he truly loved. I tried to explain to him this wasn’t the same place but he didn’t understand. Driving to the birthday party I got lost. It was exactly where I thought it was but between the GPS and people telling me the wrong way I was within fifty feet of the place only to then drive miles from it. This upset Owen because there was so much traffic. He yells constantly at me to go no matter the circumstances. Sitting in a car is not good for Owen. Trying to explain sitting in a car to Owen is impossible at this stage. We got back to the place and the next obstacle was upon us. This was not “sing happy birthday slide” place. And he let everyone know it when we walked in the door. I too could have melted into the ground like the witch from Wizard Of Oz but I moved forward. After a moment that seemed like hours Owen calmed. I still wanted to cry. He easily took his shoes and socks off and the fun began. He had a great time. The people were very friendly. The hosts were very supportive of us and truly understand. Walking out my door is one of the hardest things I do but for the love of Owen, I keep making us go. The world feels beyond lonely some days when all he does is scream at me but when we got back home today he crawled in my lap and gave me a “big hug”. My world feels like it is crumbling but through tears, I will say I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. We made progress today. My baby stood on a balance beam because we walked out of our door. I prayed for strength, I tell myself I will not crumble, and I will make tomorrow a better day. You are not alone. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.