I’m telling myself to breathe today. Deep, long breaths. Yesterday it seemed like the carnival came to town and I was stuck on the merry-go-round. I’m just gonna breathe through that and move on. I have too many emotions trapped from yesterday. I need to let go of it and move on, but when it’s concerning my child it’s hard. How do I explain his behavior to others when sometimes I can’t even understand them myself. Love and compassion help me through our days. Some days I feel like we are drifting in space, bouncing off meteorites as we float along, waiting for what’s going to crash to earth. Owen lost his third tooth last night. It added to the stress of an already emotional day. It had been loose for days. He walked over to his tablet, using it as a mirror, touched his tooth, and it fell right out on the screen. I grabbed it as quick as I could, beating him to it only by a second. “Fix the ball”, he kept yelling. He wanted his tooth back in his mouth and he wasn’t taking no for an answer. We watch videos about teeth together, trying to help him through these moments, but until it happens to him I don’t know if he really understands it. Once I got him to calm down he hasn’t really been upset about it, only putting his fingers to his mouth a few times here and there. My heart explodes with emotions. I wish I could explain it to him in a way that he could process. I wish I could process more of it myself. I’m getting better at expecting the unexpected, but there are still moments when I’m truly not prepared enough. Today as we were heading home it wasn’t even a light that got us, Owen started yelling about me not turning. As I breathed through the moment I had to think positive and realized he yelled, “turn right”. That’s progress. He normally says, “straight up” or “turn left”. Find the positive moments in your life, smile through your sadness, and let your light shine. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.