Today is a day to celebrate. Owen slept until around five, came to me, and once again wanted his tablet. The bargaining started immediately. I told him he could have his tablet if he went back to the “blue bed”. Surprisingly that worked once again, mostly. I told him that I would set the timer and then he could get up once it went off. Well, I never set the timer but he also came back multiple times and really didn’t stay in the blue bed. Somehow I was able to stay in bed for almost two more hours though. I wouldn’t say I was sleeping though. When we finally got up he immediately reminded me that it was church day. He told me about his friends that he was going to see. I love that he is making that connection. He was very calm riding to church and I was really on edge waiting for the screams, especially when I knew I needed to get gas. He thinks we need to get gas every time we go to church so he also says, “mommy get ah gas mommy not get ah gas” and he will keep repeating it back and forth. He had a great day at church and he wanted to go get “chicken nuggets apple slices french fries new ice tea cheeseburger”, saying new ice tea and apple slices multiple times. I told him I was going to get him double fries and chocolate milk because he doesn’t like either one of them so that’s probably why he kept saying them. After I got his food we came home. I braced for impact. He talked a lot on the way home. The closer we got the more anxious I became. But he started talking to himself, breathing, and counting. He went through the scenarios, “turn right I’m not gonna turn right go straight I’m not gonna go straight see the windows we are going straight home today”. Ahh, I thought we are going to make it. The day went by pretty quickly. He reminded and asked me numerous times about seeing his friend tomorrow, going to the park, his therapy, and when he was going to see his teachers. He also wanted to talk about his babysitter he hasn’t seen in several years. Once he gets something on his mind it is there to stay. As night was approaching I was in no rush to get Owen into the bath. The longer I could delay it may be the more he would sleep. The fireworks started outside before the sun even went down. From our house, we can see them from all around. He’s never paid attention to them at all and generally, he’s been in bed before they started. Occasionally over the years they have awakened him but not always. Tonight when he heard them he went to the window and he sat on the back of the couch watching them out the window. “Not hat not umbrella 4th of July fireworks”, he said. He went on, “not cat not kangaroo not lion fireworks not fireworks big cat not big cat blue sandals nope fireworks”. He went on and on. I’m not sure if he was saying all the different items to reference something or if that was him trying to explain what he was seeing. He didn’t sit there for very long but he ran to the different windows looking at them throughout the night. The victory was there and next year we will certainly go someplace to watch them even if it is a better view from the porch. Today I celebrated, rejoice, and said numerous prayers of thanksgiving on this glorious day. Your story is not written in one day. The journey through life takes us on many twists and turns but remember you are not alone and that tomorrow the sun will shine. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.