Every time I say Owen I think this is the time he is going to look at me and respond. I think this is going to be the time he looks at me with those beautiful blue eyes and he says yes momma. I think today is the day. I think, oh please let today be the day.
I often wonder why his name isn't clicking with him. Occasionally, I call him buddy but he doesn't respond to that either. I wonder what's in a name. He really doesn't respond to many things. I will say you want a bite and he will turn his head. I wonder if I catch him at the right time so he responds. I wonder if that is the time I would have gotten a response to Owen.
I was so excited one day when I said to Owen "come here" and he turned and he came to me. I thought we are on to something. I keep waiting for a repeat of that day. I keep waiting for my son to walk over and say yes momma. I keep waiting...
Don't get me wrong I accept every little thing Owen does as a huge milestone but there are some days I just wish he would understand that come here means come here. I think as he gets older those words will keep him safe and let me hold him tight and help him in so many ways. They are just words but yet I feel like they would be words he needs to know.
The words that mean the most and I say to him constantly are I love you. I think even if he never understands another word I hope he understands what "I love you" means and that he is my world. I love you Owen Emerson, I love you!