The New Tuesday

Another year has come, and gone, but today I feel more determined than ever. I can dream, and dream, and dream some more, but it’s the actions that make the dreams come true. I know what will make a better life for us, and today I’m focusing on how to make it happen. I look at Owen, and he inspires me to be a better me. In the last few weeks I have seen more connections to everything we are doing. His vocabulary is becoming more fluid, and connecting to the moments in time. He looks like he grew overnight. How did my baby’s feet get that big, I wonder. His poor toes show the wear, and tear of his jumping constantly. He bends his toes almost under his foot, and then jumps. And if he isn’t jumping, he is banging them into things. Trying to convince him to wear shoes in the house is not even an option he would like to think about. When we walk in the door everything comes off but his shirt, and diaper. For that I am thankful. I watch his feet as he plays his app. It’s almost like his foot becomes a club banging the one repeatedly on the floor, and then changing to the other one. It’s all part of his stimming. I see his smile shining through his eyes today. He asked for all his favorite places. When he said school, I told him he would be going tomorrow. He got about an inch from my nose, repeating school over, and over again. I told him in the morning he would get to go. “Let’s go to skoo today”, he said. I can’t wait to see his face when he gets on the bus tomorrow. He keeps running around yelling “cracker”, which is what he calls veggie straws. He has a whole plate full, but keeps asking for more, for more than an hour. So I grabbed him up, and the tickle fest began. His laughter is contagious. We laughed for ten minutes, and he promptly got up asking for cracker. When something is on his mind he can’t let go off it. He is eating his beloved cracker, and has asked for it continuously since he sat down. Some days I can block out the words, other days it feels little tiny drill holes being pushed into my head when it is accompanied with the screaming, screeching, and shrill tones that brings him such delight. As I look to our future I focus on the amazing things yet to come, knowing that through hard work, together we will accomplish great things, and maybe eat a cracker, or two. Celebrate your victories, celebrate ours, and know that you can do anything if you set your mind to it. Happy New Year. Smiles to all and donut daze!