To Go Saturday

I walked through a prayer today with a friend. It seems like sometimes our joy is broken and we don’t even realize it or know how to move through it. Owen slept through the night. For this, I am extremely grateful. I feel like I am slowly catching up on my sleep even though exhaustion always sits on my soul. Today has been a great day with the edges a bit tattered but there’s my little ball of energy so happy and content in his sounds and movements. I’ve asked Owen to use his words a lot in the last few days. It seems like he has been making more sounds than actually using his words but there are still moments where he is full of words. As if on cue, he comes running to me, making noises but then says, “big hug” jumping into my lap. I think he could sense my emotions were getting stronger, I was on the verge of tears, and here he came. He has hummed consistently today, using his words here and there but he has used his voice all day as a way to calm himself in his own way. It’s part of his stimming actions to soothe himself. He will pace, jump up and down, hold his hands out moving them about, and make sounds, amongst other things. I have asked Owen to sing many times today, almost begging him, so that I could hear his words. My sweet baby O is growing and changing every day. I’m learning and growing too. I know I’m harder on myself than I should be but I overthink all the possibilities. Owen fell asleep in my arms once again, this makes several nights in a row. It’s a sense of peace that I didn’t even realize I needed but here it is. Today is one moment in time. Cherish the victories, let the stumbling blocks go, and know that tomorrow is a brand new day. Smiles to all and donut daze!