If only I could sleep. I wake so often with Owen being in the other room. But I’m constantly awoken if I’m sleeping in bed with him. He seems like he covers every inch of the bed when I check on him. He’s always been a sideways sleeper and now in his double bed, he goes from one side to the other. I have bedrails on both sides and a headboard and footboard but it still doesn’t feel like enough. I debated back and forth what type of bed to use for him and where I should put it. On the floor, I thought at first, in a frame that went all the way around but I didn’t think I would be able to get out of it. Plus, I thought, maybe the older he got he wouldn’t move around as much. If anything the opposite is true. He kept talking about popcorn last night so I knew I wanted to get some. I had groceries coming today and when he kept talking about it I added it. I put straws and popcorn on a plate for his snack. He ate all of the popcorn and asked for more. He ate most of his veggie straws but popcorn kept being the request. It’s kind of funny because veggie straws have always been his go-to food. When he was little and first learning to say any words he called them “crackers” but now calls them veggie straws. He started yelling at me because I asked him to sit properly on the chair when he was eating dinner. I moved his tablet so I could talk to him. He got upset with me and started yelling more but this time he was yelling in French and German, asking for milk in both. I think it was like a reflex for him. I tried to not let the emotions wash over me and stop me in my tracks. We started the bedtime process early tonight and he went to sleep easily after reading one of his books to me that he has to take to bed every night. Through emotions, we grow and today I think we grew a lot. His smile and the kisses he comes for when we both are struggling is what gets me through our days. Believe in the happiness of tomorrow. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.