Every time I closed my eyes Owen sat up screaming at me. I was sitting at the end of his bed propped up on way too comfortable pillows. I thought he was asleep, but he wasn’t. And I think I was ready for bed as soon as I woke up yesterday morning. He finally fell asleep and I wondered if I would make it to midnight to see the new year roll in. Spoiler alert, I did not. I can’t believe it’s a brand new year. Here’s to the past, present, and our future. I look at my past and I’m so glad it’s over, but thankful for the journey and lessons it taught me. I look at today and I see how far Owen and I both have come. He stood in my living room singing, happy as a lark, and the joy washed over me. The incredible progress he has made even since last year is outstanding. Everyone sees it. Through the rivers, valleys, and the mountains we have climbed I have never given up hope for my sweet baby O. On days that seemed impossible to get through he would do something that showed me all things are possible. He yelled across the room to me, “the book the book”. He wanted me to tell him where his book The Very Hungry Caterpillar was. Every night we “read” it together. It’s now part of the routine that has been going strong for a while. He has memorized the book word for word from the videos he has watched. He says, “read the book to mommy” and the words flow. This journey through life is emotional, but the reward of seeing Owen flourish is amazing. I moved my hair out of my face and he stood watching me, then started pacing back and forth looking at where my hair was. I still have a strand of hair falling over my glasses, but I’ll move it when he isn’t looking. He’s pretty calm today and my hair is one of his meltdown triggers. I have to be the picture of mommy for him and that includes my hair and glasses to be in place, even if that means messy. I wish happiness to all for the year to come. Find your inspiration, believe in yourself, and make your dreams come true. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.