I tried to stay one step ahead of the downpouring of emotions from both of us and I did pretty well most of the day, most of it. Owen can read me like a book and he knows what buttons to push and to push them hard. I let him play all day, doing what he wanted, instead of trying to keep him focused on his schoolwork. Some days I can’t calm him enough to even try. Today was one of those days. I think it went smoother. I got him a new scooter and I gave it to him first thing in the morning. He acted like he had been using one forever. It is the kind you sit down and push with your feet. He would sit on it between playing on his tablet. I told him that we were going to do some of his work and he kept telling me no. He became like a whirlwind and wouldn’t stop. I let him play for a while longer. Instead of working on his school apps, we worked on his papers. That went over about as well as the apps though. He had to paste the letters into the right spots, but instead, he would put them in the wrong spots or upside down. He knows his alphabet backwards and forwards yet he won’t do the steps correctly because he likes the negative results. I try not to show my emotions because those feed his own and keeps him going down the same path. It’s hard not to correct him on every move when I know he can easily do the answers. He wanted me to find the BabyBus apps in the apps store. It’s a quite frequent daily request, more like an hourly request. He can get to it numerous ways, but he still wants me to type in the search request. I showed him how I did the steps, told him what he needed to type in, and the button he needed to use for searching. Then I had him write out the letters for the app on the whiteboard so he could see it later when he tried it again. I went through it with him several times and off he ran. He asked me a couple of times to do it with him and then I heard him throughout the day doing it on his own. I hold on to the progress. That’s what keeps me pushing forward. I try not to focus on the screaming or the hard times he will have trying to fall asleep at night. Today was filled with giggles, love, milestones, and challenges, but his smile shines through it all. He sang throughout the day requesting to play his drum and he wanted his guitar, which is really a ukulele, but he played and we grew together. Tomorrow is a new day. I will strive to be a better me, a stronger me, and a more compassionate me. Find what motivates you and be inspired to change the world one smile at a time. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.