Even when the weather is a little cloudy I see the joy in Owen’s sparkle. He’s been sleeping better and that helps to bring a calmness to his world, even though this momma is stressed out to the hilt. He slept late this morning. I heard him running to my bed. I wanted to yell out “walk”, but picking the battle thing comes into play. Plus, I really wasn’t awake. He stood next to me and said, “today’s bowling”. I was so excited. Today is bowling and coffee shop day, I exclaimed. Knowing that I was going to have a brownie. And then he got into bed with me. He said, “big hug” and squished his face into my head. Input day two, I thought. The words were flowing and he was happy. A whole lotta joy in that for me. Some days he wakes up very anxious and everything seems hard for him to process. I pray every day that he has a calm that washes over him and he will be able to use his words to express what he wants and needs. I’ve been trying to ask him more questions lately, hoping this will provoke words and emotions from him. I have to be careful to not push him too much though. It can backfire on me. If I ask too many questions then he starts screaming and retreats from the interaction. He’s hiding underneath his “blanket”, listening to the same few seconds of a video he is watching, every once in a while popping his head out to smile at me. The partially vacant toothy grin he’s got going on cracks me up. I can’t wait to get our day started. He’s ready for bowling. I’m ready for the coffee shop and my glorious celebratory brownie for reaching my goal weight. And then it’s back to the healthy train. Sugar is no longer my friend because of arthritis. Life doesn’t always go according to plan, but I’m learning to let my expectations go and embracing who I am. Owen inspires me every day to be a better me. Find your inspiration and know that you can make a difference in our world. Embrace you. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.