The rules changed. How, why, when and I don’t know circle in my mind trying to figure out how we went from having the lights on when Owen fell asleep to him now wanting no lights on, give or take, possibly, maybe the lights from one of his stuffed animals or noisemakers but otherwise not one light on in the house, anywhere. My head spins with the options and order I’m supposed to do things in to make sleep time and awake time into a perfect scenario to make everything right for our day. And so it goes. Last night it took Owen hours to go to sleep. Every time I thought he was asleep he would pop up from the bed. Sometimes completely getting out of it to go turn off another one of the lights in our house, sometimes it was to throw his body in the huge amounts of pillows he has on his bed for the input he needed, and other times wanting “let’s go potty” - knowing this is one I would never refuse. It was almost eleven before I finally crawled into bed. I was out before I could even count one sheep. Owen got into bed with me around four and slept for a few more hours. I was thankful for that. When we woke for the day he had one thing in mind, “turch turch turch”. He is working on how to say the “ch” sound and it is fascinating to me how he is processing it. He can say the “ch” sound in the word depending on where it is located and what other words he is saying it with. I feel blessed when the words flow from him. I know the struggles it took for him to learn each one of those words and to use them. Tears form in my eyes thinking about the progress he has made. Yesterday was a rough one, but had fantastic edges with growth and fun sprinkled all around. Through tired eyes and the challenges we face I learn, grow, and change. Love, compassion, and understanding have a whole new meaning to me and throw in some patience with that too. Focus on the positive side of life and the rest will follow. Make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.