The noises of the earth are louder than the roar of the lion. I’m often amazed at how many sounds the world truly makes. If you sit for a moment even inside your house there are probably at least five noises that are surrounding you and you aren’t even thinking about them. The lights, the refrigerator, the air conditioner, the doors squeaking, the floors creaking, and the list goes on and on. Owen hears them all. He often wants me to turn off noises that there are no ways for me to turn off. In our neighborhood every spring I wait for the wind chimes to come back out. “Hear it,” he says when he can’t drown out one sound with another. The wind chimes, the rain, and the traffic, all have been too much for him at one time or another. How do I even begin to explain I can’t make the rain stop beating down on our roof or the washing machine to not shake the house? I pray each day for the world to be calm for my son. Thankfully he slept until almost six. He was ready to go bowling as soon as he woke up. I told him we would go later. He needed me to say we would go “in a little bit.” He needs those words. I’m trying not to let the tears flow down my cheeks. He clings to my words for the direction of our day and “later” is not close to “in a little bit.” When it was finally time to head to bowling he wasn’t in a hurry but wanted to go. When we got to the bowling alley they were closed. I don’t know if they started opening later or if it was another reason but this upset him. He didn’t understand why and it is hard to explain. I took him by the depot and then we went to the park so he could ride his bike and play on the playground. He is becoming more adventurous with riding his bike and he can make tighter turns now. I’m thankful for his progress. After we left the park I couldn’t decide if I should try to take him to the other bowling alley. Change is not easy and when we go to someplace that we usually don’t go to it is hard. We started at this bowling alley but they closed and reopened after remolding and new ownership. I have to push myself to do these steps. You never know how people will handle it. So many emotions are running through my head to even explain how it went. I want to say we got through it but he had a lot of fun. I want to say it was good and bad. I want to say I wish our regular bowling alley would have been open. But I will say even though it’s hard we have to do these types of activities outside both our boundaries. We got home and the night was rollercoastery. Bath time was the talk of the night and it didn’t come soon enough for him. I think it is part of his sensory needs right now. He wanted to stick his toes on his teeth and he got mad that he couldn’t take off the booboo on his knee. I hold onto the happiness that washed across his face when the train came by when he was riding his bike. Let joy take away the sorrow that clings to your heart and watch the change it makes. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.