The morning went quickly. He had a lot of things on his mind and was ready to do every single one of them. The bus was ahead of schedule today so I was glad the bus app was working. We were able to go out early so he could have his time to walk around and talk to me about his day. It wasn’t long and over the shoulder, he asked me if he was going to see all his people and he hurried to get on the bus.
I got ready and headed off to my doctor’s appointment. I went to see my leg doctor and to get my shots. We talked about when I could have my hip replacement done. I have been released from the cancer but I still have to wait at least eight weeks to get my strength back and let some of the chemicals clear my system. I told him I knew his schedule was busy so I wanted to go ahead and get the process started. It will be sometime maybe close to spring.
Puberty, emotions, and hormones are leading to an interesting phase of life. I feel like he is making more connections to his emotions so I’m hoping this will help him through these phases. He got home from school and he was very calm. He wouldn’t take his “little blue jeans” off until I told him he could wear his “little blue jeans” tomorrow. He wanted me to know he wanted to wear those exact jeans. I agreed but then I also talked to him again about what that meant. I want to remind him that we can’t always wear the same thing and I ask him to tell me why. To me, it is important for him to learn about the process so he understands when something isn’t available for him to wear. He was very focused on all the days ahead and when he could wear what.
“Thanksgiving break, Christmas break, spring break, summer break, no more school,” he said to me. The focus was on all the times he would be off. One of the things that is very hard for him is living in the moment. He looks forward to so many things now but then once he is in the moment he is ready to move on to the next thing. It is my goal to help him learn to be in the moment even if we are still looking ahead. He will get it.
“You are being bump loud,” he said. I’m not quite sure why he says this but when he does I know he is about to get very loud. And loud he got. He thinks it is funny. I wish I could remember when he started this or if I ever made a connection to a particular reason he says it but he thinks it is hilarious and likes to do it a lot. Sometimes he will use the term after he has had a meltdown and screamed the whole time. One day I know he will tell me about it.
Bedtime came and behaviors started. I told him that he needed to stop or he wouldn’t be going anywhere tomorrow. There is this extremely fine line that I was walking. If I try to make this a particular teacher moment it can cause it to go extremely sideways and that would be the end of that. The meltdown would start and he would not handle it well. The goal is to explain, keep him calm, and pray that what I just did does not keep him up all night. Here’s to that prayer.
He fell asleep quickly after his prayer thanking God for his grandma. His laughter was brilliant tonight and he asked for lots of tickles. I love it when he is in a happy mood. I am so thankful for his growth and how far he has come. He is ready for his big weekend at Grandma’s house and church. Each day is a gift. Let today be the best day yet. Smiles to all and donut daze!
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