Some nights Owen falls asleep like a dream and then the next night it’s like party central and he is not even considering sleep. Last night was the breeze and tonight it was the hurricane. He flipped flopped back and forth, up and down, and all around his bed, yelling for the blue blanket. So he has a bright blue blanket, a dark blue blanket, a darker blue blanket, and a blue shark blanket and those are the ones on his bed right now. I put the first one on him, the screams continued. I tried a different one, nope. He didn’t really want any of them and he certainly wanted all of them. He also wanted to lay on top of them. He kept kicking them off and then kicking the bedrail, laughing hysterically as he did it. I rolled over. Sometimes it makes it harder when I try to answer all the questions or move all the blankets and other times me giving him every blanket in the house is the only thing holding the threads together so he doesn’t have a huge meltdown and then we are up all night. After a few more flops he was finally asleep. And then it’s unwind time for me. It seems like it takes me as long to wind down as it does for him to fall asleep. I stood in the kitchen with the lights off wondering if anyone else prepares their coffeemaker for the next day in the dark. I was praying I didn’t wake up Owen as I did it. My house could not be laid out in the worst way for him. I can’t close his bedroom door because this would not go over well, instead I have two blackout curtains hanging in different areas hoping to block the lights he could see through the house. It doesn’t always work so I try to keep as many lights off as possible once he falls asleep. Some nights he wakes up screaming if I open the refrigerator and the light shines through the house, this is what I want to avoid. What carried me through my day was his laughter as he listened to Siri talk with him as he asked her to say everything he could think of in every language she can translate. There are miracles all around us. Find your joy and change the world. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.