He was going to his grandma’s this morning while I went to have my pet scan done. Thankfully it went well and only took a couple of hours. After the scan, I went to pick him up for his music therapy. He had a nice time with his grandma but he continuously focuses on the days ahead. It is hard for him to concentrate in the moment.
We got ready to leave and he was excited about going to music therapy. The ride there took a little extra time because one of the lights wouldn’t change. We sat there for three cycles and it never changed to green. Finally, we got going and thankfully Owen handled it well.
When we got to music therapy his therapist wasn’t wearing blue pants and he was very upset. He is cycling back through this behavior. My heart breaks for him. It also seems the more someone means to him the more it upsets him when they don’t have blue pants on. This feels like it is escalating again for him. Since his routine has been so out of sorts lately I feel like he is trying to make connections in any way he can. He wanted her to promise she would wear blue pants tomorrow. She said she was able to calm him through the session and did his routine exercises. She walked with us out to the car and that helped him relax more.
I wasn’t sure how it would go on the way home. We worked on a few breathing exercises but he was completely calm all the way home except the street before our house that he wanted to turn on. I was thankful he was calmer. I can only imagine how his brain processes all of this. As soon as we got out of the car he walked towards the house and he was calm again. He ate lunch, a snack, and requested more of his lunch. Thankfully he was very calm the rest of the afternoon.
We got ready to go to his vision therapy appointment and I told him that we had to be kind to people that weren’t wearing blue pants. On the way there I had him help me look for people walking and we discussed what they were wearing. I wanted him to realize that everyone was wearing different clothes and it would be fine. He pointed out several people and told me exactly what they were wearing. I truly pray he is not going down the blue pants pathway again.
He did better at vision therapy. Thankfully he was calmer. He was still on a repetitive track but he at least was able to work on the exercises and did most of them correctly. I am thankful for his therapists and doctors who poured so much love into my son and helped us through those harder days.
I know that he is going through an emotional rollercoaster right now and he can feel my emotions with everything I am going through as well. I pray for calm days. I pray for connections and understanding. I pray for school to hurry up and get here because I know how much he loves it. He sat asking Siri to translate so many words and phrases right before bedtime again. His adorable little laugh and the smile on his face that I don’t even have to see to know is there made my night. Learn to laugh with all your might and love the world even more. Smiles to all and donut daze!