Rain screams, they started loud and they started early. He wanted me to “turn the rain off.” There are not enough words in the world for me to be able to explain to Owen that I can’t turn off the rain and I can’t do anything about it. My heart rides the rollercoaster waiting for life to explain life to me. It’s hard knowing that raindrops are going to create screams that echo through my mind for days. When did rain become so hard? We woke around five and the rain was loud. This was all too much for Owen. I knew today was going to be hard. It was the second day out of routine this week. I wish I could help him through these moments. When the screaming stopped he didn’t want me to go to the bathroom. I told him I had to. When I came back he slept a few minutes more but that only emphasized the rain one more time. He started yelling about the seasons. He said, “it’s fall.” I knew where this was going. It’s not supposed to rain in the fall. Fall is about leaves, pumpkins, and turkeys. I tried to distract him which actually also emphasized that it was raining. He talked about it not being spring or summer. We could have gone to breakfast or lunch with grandma but it was raining plus our blue pants would get wet and he was afraid we were going someplace on a trip. I was able to calm him down but we were not going anywhere today and he reminded me of this every few minutes all day long. I told him we were getting groceries because his chocolate milk was coming. This meant that the “manilla milk” I poured him then got poured down the sink. He told me he wanted me to use a chocolate milk spoon to make it but he kept pouring out the milk. “Don’t go away there will be chocolate milk,” he said like he was the announcer for a commercial. Finally, the “chocolate milk man” arrived and he wanted me to pour him a new glass which promptly got left on the table without him drinking it for at least thirty minutes. While I was making his waffles I stood trying to exercise with him. I wanted him to bend in half and touch his toes. Instead, he sat on the ground touching his toes. I had to move him but he still didn’t get it and sat back down. We work on new movements all the time but it is something we have to go over numerous times before he understands them. He was very concerned about his teeth. He is about to “lose a tooth” and also “growin it in” for another tooth. He told me the “fairy” was coming and bringing him another lollipop. As the day went on he was fine as long as I sat and didn’t mention doing anything today. If I said anything he would say he was going to grandma’s tomorrow and that was it. It’s supposed to rain all day tomorrow too. One day at a time and I can pray that the rain holds off when we need to go anywhere. I think we both ate all day it seems. I’m thankful he calmed by night’s end and sleep came quickly. I’m glad for the laughs we did have and the mischievous smile he had while naming animals and singing to me in all the languages. Thai, French, and Spanish were the big ones for today. Believe in your dreams and know that you can make them your reality. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.