For This Wednesday

I think I’m cranky again. So okay, I know I am. No sleep is no fun. Owen woke at some point, got into bed with me, but fell asleep quickly. However, he didn’t want to sleep in the little cocoon area I have on my bed for him, he wanted to sleep with his feet across me. I always worry he is going to fall out of my bed even though I have a rail on the side. He slept the rest of the night and woke ready to see his teacher. He asked about school and going to church. I told him we had a couple of minutes to get ready and he cried out for his teacher. I said he would see her soon. On these days I’m thankful and anxious. He goes to a new school next year and he’ll have a new teacher. I know that he will be able to transition through all of this but on the days that he screams for his teacher I try to figure out how to prepare him for his future. How do I explain any of it when he is happy with how everything is going now. This morning as we were getting ready to go to the bus stop I notice it was drizzling. I almost didn’t even take the umbrella because it was raining so lightly. I grabbed the umbrella anyways and headed to the bus stop. Owen stopped numerous times to bend over and look at how his pant leg was falling on his shoe. The longer we stood at the bus stop the harder it rained and the later it seemed the bus was. Owen wanted to play in the puddles that were quickly forming, I kept trying to keep him under the umbrella. I thought why didn’t I bring us in the car. I saw the bus turn the corner. All I had to do was get him over the big puddles and into the bus. Well, I got him over the puddles but he was bound and determined to stomp in them anyways. It made me think one step at a time. Let the moment go, be kind to your own heart, and through the rain, the sun will still shine. Smiles to all and donut daze!