From The Rooftops Monday

I can’t help but get sad some days. That’s part of our human emotions. We all got something, I always say. I’m trying to not hold on to those emotions that set my tears in motion. Owen wanted to go to school. He had slept all night in his bed, for that, I rejoiced. He got up, ran to my bed, and slept for a while longer. As I was getting up the words started, immediately asking for his teacher. Rinse, repeat, but how do I move us forward. Maybe I need to rethink this and move me forward, change my way of looking at our day. Owen is interacting with me in different ways now. He is able to focus more on what’s happening around him, but he still doesn’t always understand how to explain what he wants. I told him that we were going to get groceries delivered yesterday, but he thought we were going to the grocery store. He gets upset when people come to our house unexpectedly, so I was trying to prepare him. He couldn’t process what was happening and he started screaming and crying. I have to breathe, I have to know that he doesn’t understand what’s happening around him, and I have to expect and accept the fact that he is going to scream. But my heart still aches for my baby. My words caused him to scream. My words set a meltdown in motion when I wanted my words to calm him. We were in the car when I started explaining to him that we had to get home because the groceries were coming. This is where I’m sure more of the confusion came from. When we turned to go home instead of the store he started yelling, “turn left”. Turn left and straight up are his directions for going anywhere, but it wasn’t the store he wanted to go to. He yelled, “bowling” in between the cries and said, “wanna go to the elevator”. Calmness washed over him in about an hour. I’m thankful for his words, his growth, and that amazing smile. Move forward, be thankful, and rejoice your victories. Smiles to all and donut daze!