Full Tuesday.

Owen slept. I wept. I was also up countless times worried I missed him waking, so not much sleep last night for me but I’m thankful he slept. It always takes me a while to adjust my sleeping routine when he starts sleeping again. I still think I sleep with one eye open no matter what but at least I’m getting some sleep. I think that’s a mom rule. He started back to school today. He loves school. I’m thankful for his new teacher’s guidance with him. It’s hard to believe he’s already in 3rd grade. He seemed very calm today. I’ve noticed that his maturity level has increased in the last few weeks. He’s asking to do more activities that he likes and helps me with our paintings. He also wants me to help him with his school apps and I can see the connections he is making. His comprehension level has increased as well. I’m still working on his connection to locations or when I point to an object and what him to bring it to me. My phone was on my desk. I pointed to it and I asked him to bring me mommy’s phone. He immediately bent to the ground trying to find it, even though I wasn’t pointing to the ground. I tried again giving him more specific directions, telling him it was on my desk. He still wasn’t looking at it even though he was less than two feet from it. I went further telling him the black desk and he finally looked over at it even though I was pointing at it the whole time. He doesn’t understand the concept of pointing. He can’t follow the imaginary line that comes out of the tip of my finger. It’s an abstract connection that I’ve always tried to figure out how to explain to him. I’ve tried to start with objects that are very close to me and it’s still doesn’t help the concept. I know one day he will make the connection and until then we keep working on it. Even though he slept all night he still struggled to fall asleep. I gave him a supplement tonight that we have used in the past. He was asleep within an hour with only a minimal amount of fanfare of jumping on the bed. I’ll take it. Sleep for my baby helps to make him grow. And this momma is learning and growing right there with him. I’m thankful for his growth, I’m excited about the school year ahead and trying not to think about the uncertainties of their schedules, and seeing Owen smile as he sounds out words makes me beam with joy. Never give up. Dream the big dream, let yesterday go, and live life forward. Smiles to all and donut daze!