Owen didn’t sleep much last night. I think the river was running through his dreams. He woke with the same thing on his mind as it was yesterday. The river. I sit here beyond exhausted but it’s quiet, except for the pulse running through my headache. I have to sit. From five o’clock this morning until nine o’clock tonight it was full-on waves of sounds and emotions. He fell asleep in my arms and I think I probably could have fallen asleep in his. He let me eat a banana today without screaming. He got under the covers when I was eating it, peeking out his head to say, “you done you not done” numerous times. Then he said, “throw it in the trash” and I told him sure, that he could throw away the skin for me and he did. This meltdown worthy food has been a rollercoaster ride for years. Today was a big step. I wouldn’t even think about pushing it if he didn’t love the taste of them so much. Yesterday he had a banana smoothie and drank the whole thing down. As long as he doesn’t see it he’s fine with them and as much as he loves the taste I keep trying different ways for him to be fine with the actual banana. “River” was his focus today but momma wasn’t gonna play today. I got my serious mom face on when he tried to push my buttons. It’s amazing actually how far that got us. I deleted YouTube from his tablet. He was able to spell YouTube in the App Store and get it back. Score one for Owen. Then I wouldn’t look up the river video for him so he spelled it all day long. And the date right along with it, not only on his tablet but on the tv too. The dude had a big appetite, I guess from having to type all that stuff out because he asked for shrimp three times and ate every single bit of what I made him. We both had our share of emotions today but he was much calmer and the more I stood my ground the more we both grew. Let’s see where the river lands us tomorrow. Follow your heart, make your dreams a reality, and never forget that tomorrow is a brand new day. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.