The movie trip! The movie trip! We were all about the movie trip! “Walk in the road, no right here,” he said. “Wait on the porch,” he continued. Owen woke about twenty minutes before five. I sent him on his way two times but then he came back after five and proudly proclaimed that he did not sleep all night but went back to bed and was going on the movie trip today.
He will ask me over and over the same questions but I kept telling him he knows the answer and to tell me what is happening when he asks me. He tried to change the subject but I made him follow through and tell me hoping to help redirect him. I want him to realize he doesn’t need me to confirm anything and to use his confident voice in telling me things he already knows. He wasn’t repeating as much this morning after I had him tell me exactly what he was asking me so we were off to a great start.
Pushing buttons is what he loves to do especially on the days when he can see my emotions are worn and frazzled. He feeds off of it. The screams become louder when he doesn’t see me respond and he will keep it up. I talk to him about working together and not trying to upset each other but button pushing is so much more fun when you are a teenager.
The constant requests to go when something is still hours away can be completely exhausting. He can’t stop asking and distracting him is like trying to take a fish out of water. It is wonderful for him to be so excited about something even if it is exhausting to me. I am thrilled that he wants to go places I just hope we can find that middle ground.
He was ready for the movie trip and I was trying to get him to sit on the couch so that I could finish getting my stuff together for the errands I needed to run. He kept taking what I needed and putting it back while I was getting other things instead of leaving it alone. I know he was excited so I should have waited to do it until after he left but I figured I would leave right after they left. Our friend got here to pick him up before we got out to the porch. I tell myself it is good for his schedule and expectations to be changed occasionally but it honestly makes it harder on me in the long run since he never forgets a thing and is still reminding me about his French fries that were left out of his bag months ago.
Off they went to the movie trip and then our friend took him to see his grandma. My mom’s neighbor’s son invited Owen to his birthday party at this reptile place. He at first didn’t want to go but then decided that he wanted to go see the turtles my mom said. I totally forgot he now wants turtles to live with the goats and the purple cows on the farm in the woods until she said that he wanted to see the turtles. He told me he wants them to play with the goats. He had fun when they got there. We will take him back one day to hold a turtle.
My mom brought him home after the party and a trip by the “blue church.” He told me he wanted a video of them coming home and her leaving. I knew he was upset with me because I hadn’t gotten him out on the porch soon enough to see our friend pick him up so I made sure to get his videos with his grandma. He watched her drive off and immediately started asking me for the videos.
As the night went on he told me he was mad because I didn’t get outside quickly enough to see our friend get here. The screaming gets me. He has learned to scream at a whole new volume and then says “want to be bump loud” and then more screaming. I’m not sure where that phrase came from but he likes to use it a lot. And the screaming continued all night. He screamed because I got up to go to the bathroom. He screamed more because I told him that going to the bathroom was not something I should be screamed at for. And he screamed because he wanted to scream. And I cried because I don’t have answers.
Tomorrow after church they are having a picnic. I think we will try to stay and see how it goes. I pray he sleeps tonight so we can go to church. After screaming at me one more time before bed he told me “Sorry mommy I love you one more hug please.” My heart holds onto those moments. I pray every night for strength, patience, and understanding. I pray for a calmer tomorrow for my sweet baby O. Through challenges we grow stronger and learn what compassion truly means. Smiles to all and donut daze!
He will ask me over and over the same questions but I kept telling him he knows the answer and to tell me what is happening when he asks me. He tried to change the subject but I made him follow through and tell me hoping to help redirect him. I want him to realize he doesn’t need me to confirm anything and to use his confident voice in telling me things he already knows. He wasn’t repeating as much this morning after I had him tell me exactly what he was asking me so we were off to a great start.
Pushing buttons is what he loves to do especially on the days when he can see my emotions are worn and frazzled. He feeds off of it. The screams become louder when he doesn’t see me respond and he will keep it up. I talk to him about working together and not trying to upset each other but button pushing is so much more fun when you are a teenager.
The constant requests to go when something is still hours away can be completely exhausting. He can’t stop asking and distracting him is like trying to take a fish out of water. It is wonderful for him to be so excited about something even if it is exhausting to me. I am thrilled that he wants to go places I just hope we can find that middle ground.
He was ready for the movie trip and I was trying to get him to sit on the couch so that I could finish getting my stuff together for the errands I needed to run. He kept taking what I needed and putting it back while I was getting other things instead of leaving it alone. I know he was excited so I should have waited to do it until after he left but I figured I would leave right after they left. Our friend got here to pick him up before we got out to the porch. I tell myself it is good for his schedule and expectations to be changed occasionally but it honestly makes it harder on me in the long run since he never forgets a thing and is still reminding me about his French fries that were left out of his bag months ago.
Off they went to the movie trip and then our friend took him to see his grandma. My mom’s neighbor’s son invited Owen to his birthday party at this reptile place. He at first didn’t want to go but then decided that he wanted to go see the turtles my mom said. I totally forgot he now wants turtles to live with the goats and the purple cows on the farm in the woods until she said that he wanted to see the turtles. He told me he wants them to play with the goats. He had fun when they got there. We will take him back one day to hold a turtle.
My mom brought him home after the party and a trip by the “blue church.” He told me he wanted a video of them coming home and her leaving. I knew he was upset with me because I hadn’t gotten him out on the porch soon enough to see our friend pick him up so I made sure to get his videos with his grandma. He watched her drive off and immediately started asking me for the videos.
As the night went on he told me he was mad because I didn’t get outside quickly enough to see our friend get here. The screaming gets me. He has learned to scream at a whole new volume and then says “want to be bump loud” and then more screaming. I’m not sure where that phrase came from but he likes to use it a lot. And the screaming continued all night. He screamed because I got up to go to the bathroom. He screamed more because I told him that going to the bathroom was not something I should be screamed at for. And he screamed because he wanted to scream. And I cried because I don’t have answers.
Tomorrow after church they are having a picnic. I think we will try to stay and see how it goes. I pray he sleeps tonight so we can go to church. After screaming at me one more time before bed he told me “Sorry mommy I love you one more hug please.” My heart holds onto those moments. I pray every night for strength, patience, and understanding. I pray for a calmer tomorrow for my sweet baby O. Through challenges we grow stronger and learn what compassion truly means. Smiles to all and donut daze!
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