I got up and heard him stirring as I was getting my coffee. I said good morning and he went to the bathroom. He ran past me to get his tablet and then he stood post at the light switch ready for me to finish. He turned the light off and he followed me to my bedroom.
I love these mornings when he wants to sit with me before he goes off to school. He laughed and played on his tablet. Every once in a while he would make a comment or ask me a question.
We went outside to wait for the bus and he was talking about his days ahead. I tried to distract him because he isn’t going to his grandma’s house tomorrow unless plans change. I reminded him to focus on today and he pointed to the moon for me. The bus came and off he went.
When he came home we talked about what we could do tonight. We were possibly going to the movies but the place had a problem and had to close for the night. I’m not sure I could have convinced him to go though. Friday nights are for staying home so he can usually prepare for his Saturday with grandma.
He didn’t want to eat his dinner before he took a bath. Technically now it’s more of a “swim in the tub pool” but it’s his bath time. He put on his swimsuit and in the water, he went. He got his goggles on and the “swimming” began. He started pulling the drawstring of his swimsuit and I asked him if he could pull the other side. He was only pulling one side to tighten them. Instructions like this can be hard for him but he figured out what I meant and did it.
When he got out he wanted dinner and to discuss his weekend. If all goes according to plan he will see his grandma tomorrow but it won’t be at her house. I didn’t want to try to explain this and complicate the day for him. I am also hoping that him thinking he isn’t going to her house will let him sleep tonight.
Sleeping at first was not an option. I had helped him get his pajamas on and he got in bed. I went to my room and I heard all kinds of noise. He met me in the kitchen and no longer had his pajamas on and I walked into his room with the bedrail off his bed and the fan on full blast. He told me to get the ladder so he could climb. Thankfully I turned the light and the fan off and he went t back to bed without wanting his pajamas on.
Hopefully, the rest of the night is quiet and he sleeps. I’m praying that him knowing he is not going to his grandma’s house tomorrow will help this.
Each day I try to remember to focus on the food stuff. The stress, anxiety, and loneliness can be so heavy some days so remembering where we came from reminds me of where we are going. Find your smile and let your dreams soar. Smiles to all and donut daze!