Sleep is a glorious thing. I only woke up once last night and Owen slept until after six. This makes this momma very happy. Thankfully I am still feeling better. I am tired but my stomach isn’t doing any rock ‘n roll moves. Food doesn’t taste great still but at least I’m able to eat and drink.
The focus was clear this morning and Owen wanted me to know he needed to see his teacher in December and all the other months. He has been more elevated lately. We have been able to talk about it and worked through so much but today would prove not to be the easiest of those days for him.
The rules have to be perfect. The clothes have to be blue but not his clothes, the traffic lights need to be green, and the roads not busy. My heart aches for my sweet baby O when his days don’t go according to plan and he can’t handle it. His anxiety was way up today and I keep praying for the right answers to help him through this. Growth spurts are hard and I know he is going through one. Each day I tell him I love him and it will all be fine. I remind him how brilliant he is and that he can overcome anything. I want him to feel strong and be strong in these moments.
We got ready for the bus and he was doing fine until it was time to get on the bus. He has to make sure about his schedule for the week instead of focusing on today. He got on the bus and he kept talking to me, wanting to know if he was riding the bus home tomorrow. He knew today I was picking him up. This has been his schedule for years and he still questions it.
When I picked him up from school he was already elevated. As we drove to his music therapy we went over the assigned days for blue pants. I even wore blue pants hoping it would help him. As soon as we got there blue pants were his concern even though I reminded him today his therapist wouldn’t be wearing them. My heart just aches. His sadness and anxiety from blue pants are so hard to even explain. It is like it hurts him to not see the people he needs in blue pants to be in something else. I talked to him about letting people decide what they want to wear like he wants to wear shorts but this still was too hard for him. I just pray that he can somehow make a connection that will help ease this from his mind.
On the ride home he was talking about cars around us. I randomly asked him what the one in front of us was and he said, “Jeep.” I couldn’t believe he knew what it was. It amazes me how much he knows and stores in his mind. He named a couple of others correctly as we drove by.
We didn’t have his vision therapy today but he decided he wanted pizza so we got pizza for dinner and I can sure tell it truly is a growth spurt. I asked him if he wanted to take his bath after dinner or wait. He told me after dinner so as soon as he was done I said let’s go take your bath. He started screaming “No bath today” but I reminded him he just asked to take it now. I told him that we don’t scream at each other and he finally calmed down. He said, “Take deep breath calm down.” I am so glad he is connecting to this now. Once he was in the bath he didn’t want to get out.
After his bath, he was much calmer. He laughed so hard and we had fun playing with his games. I pray for more connections every day and for him to truly embrace how to calm down. Together we grow and together we learn how to win tomorrow. Never give up on the miracle yet to come. Life is what you make it so let’s make it grand. Smiles to all and donut daze!
The focus was clear this morning and Owen wanted me to know he needed to see his teacher in December and all the other months. He has been more elevated lately. We have been able to talk about it and worked through so much but today would prove not to be the easiest of those days for him.
The rules have to be perfect. The clothes have to be blue but not his clothes, the traffic lights need to be green, and the roads not busy. My heart aches for my sweet baby O when his days don’t go according to plan and he can’t handle it. His anxiety was way up today and I keep praying for the right answers to help him through this. Growth spurts are hard and I know he is going through one. Each day I tell him I love him and it will all be fine. I remind him how brilliant he is and that he can overcome anything. I want him to feel strong and be strong in these moments.
We got ready for the bus and he was doing fine until it was time to get on the bus. He has to make sure about his schedule for the week instead of focusing on today. He got on the bus and he kept talking to me, wanting to know if he was riding the bus home tomorrow. He knew today I was picking him up. This has been his schedule for years and he still questions it.
When I picked him up from school he was already elevated. As we drove to his music therapy we went over the assigned days for blue pants. I even wore blue pants hoping it would help him. As soon as we got there blue pants were his concern even though I reminded him today his therapist wouldn’t be wearing them. My heart just aches. His sadness and anxiety from blue pants are so hard to even explain. It is like it hurts him to not see the people he needs in blue pants to be in something else. I talked to him about letting people decide what they want to wear like he wants to wear shorts but this still was too hard for him. I just pray that he can somehow make a connection that will help ease this from his mind.
On the ride home he was talking about cars around us. I randomly asked him what the one in front of us was and he said, “Jeep.” I couldn’t believe he knew what it was. It amazes me how much he knows and stores in his mind. He named a couple of others correctly as we drove by.
We didn’t have his vision therapy today but he decided he wanted pizza so we got pizza for dinner and I can sure tell it truly is a growth spurt. I asked him if he wanted to take his bath after dinner or wait. He told me after dinner so as soon as he was done I said let’s go take your bath. He started screaming “No bath today” but I reminded him he just asked to take it now. I told him that we don’t scream at each other and he finally calmed down. He said, “Take deep breath calm down.” I am so glad he is connecting to this now. Once he was in the bath he didn’t want to get out.
After his bath, he was much calmer. He laughed so hard and we had fun playing with his games. I pray for more connections every day and for him to truly embrace how to calm down. Together we grow and together we learn how to win tomorrow. Never give up on the miracle yet to come. Life is what you make it so let’s make it grand. Smiles to all and donut daze!
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