Little Bit Of Thursday

The thing I’ve learned today is that we are each hurting in our own ways, we are each rejoicing, and we find ways to push through the moments of life. When I think I’m not doing something right it’s proven that I am and when I question everything in the world along comes an answer. It’s not always the answer I want, but that’s how it goes sometimes. Last night Owen didn’t sleep. He woke around two and that was the end of our sleep. He stayed in bed with me for several hours, but it was anything but peaceful. He rolled, he talked, he kicked, he pulled my hair, and he took the blanket away from me. I really needed sleep so I laid there, but sleep wasn’t anything that came. Maybe if I had moved to the couch he would have let me sleep a few hours. This is where I think the new supplement is starting to have a reverse effect on Owen. It’s happened before and I’m sure it will happen again. It works like a dream to get him to sleep, but it’s almost like it puts a rocket ship in his brain in the middle of the night. I was so hopeful for this one. I thought for sure it was going to be the one. I dream of calm for my baby. He’s wide awake and happy as a lark this evening, with a slight edge to him. He ran to the door, one more time, to check to make sure the lock was positioned upright. He checks it several times a night now. I’m thankful it’s still in a locked state. In the middle of the night, when all I wanted was sleep, I kept telling myself to be thankful. We have come so far. Autism is as much about how I handle it as it is about Owen having it. Together we grow stronger and through it all, we are a team. Even in the middle of storms, the sun will shine. Smile and let the world see you shine. Smiles to all and donut daze!