Sometimes the emotions walk me through my days. Today was one of those. I try to concentrate on the good stuff. I want to cry. I have been crying so I guess I want to cry more. It’s spring break. So many families rejoice these days, I do not. It’s hard on Owen today and it will be hard on him in a week. He absolutely loves school. Every single thing about it. The routine of it, riding the bus, seeing his friends, and especially his teacher. This list can go on and on. He technically probably doesn’t love every single thing but I would have to say it is really close. Taking him away from his daily routine makes him repeat words even more. The morning went like most mornings lately. Happy mood, struggle mood, good mood all right in order. As soon as he got home from school he wanted to know when he was going to see his teacher again. The questions didn’t stop for the rest of the night. He wants to make sure the rest of his routine is the same. He asked about his vision therapy and what was going to happen on Thursday since I wasn’t picking him up from school. The happy part is he says he wants to go bowling tomorrow. I pray we go. I realized how much my words and others truly impact him. It finally dawned on me that my words are very literal to him. I always say he will “be home with mommy” when he is not going to school for whatever reason it is. “Be home” not be other places but be home. Learning to decipher a code of knowledge that is so similar yet so different than your own is once again emotional. I always say autism is as much about how I handle it as it is about Owen having it. Tomorrow I pray for that bowling trip, Sunday for church, Monday for fun, Tuesday for his birthday, and on and on of good days. Through these challenges, our victories become a beautiful story that shows the true inspiration my son is to my heart. He will continue to grow and teach me the stories that are worth sharing. Share your story and share ours. You are amazing and your smile will change the world. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.