Thankfully we slept. I need that calm to wash over me. Exhausted beyond exhaustion still doesn’t cover it. It’s been calmly rough the last few days. In so many ways Owen is calm but in other ways, he is beyond upset because his routine is nothing like he wants it to be. Repeatedly he asks for his teacher all day long and if he is not asking for her he wants to make sure he’s not supposed to be at school and if he’s not asking about school he wants to make sure he is going to therapy. He thrives on his routine and without it his world spirals. How do you explain it’s going to be fine when routine is so very important to him? He learned to blow bubbles in his water this morning. He had done something similar but it was right there in his glass and he just laughed and laughed. Last night he threw away his shrimp because I told him he could take a bath after he ate his dinner. Today he pour out his milk repeatedly because he was ready to go to therapy but then he wanted more back in his cup. His new old thing is he wants to fall. When he was younger I had to keep him from jumping out of the window sills or off the table. Today at his vision therapy he kept jumping off the trampoline and falling to the ground asking if he was hurt. When he got home he sat on the dining chair and said, “you can fall from the chair you need a bandaid on your knee” and it wasn’t long that he pretended to fell off the chair. This is a trend I wish would have not come back. He got in my bed and pulled all the covers off of it in and in two point two seconds he was under them watching bowling telling me he wanted to take a bath. He then wanted his tablet in the bathtub but settled for bubbles on his head so he could see them in the mirror. After his bath, it was sound asleep quickly for my sweet baby O. And my exhaustion just amped up. Tomorrow is a brand new day and it’s his birthday. We have a full day ahead. The most exciting part he knows it’s his birthday and he knows he will be eleven. Focus on the good stuff. Try to let your dwelling heart rest in the good of the day. I need to listen to this on repeat. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.